He's almost a TEENAGER! and I'm not ready for this.

This year has definitely been a "Growing Pains" year for us. Jason has been morphing into a teenager. And as a mom, I'm just not ready for my little boy to be a teenager. Today I drove him to a birthday party for one of his friends. He's been to birthday parties before, but for some reason this one was different. Before the party Jason had an outfit picked out and even had me fix his hair, and I could smell a hint of cologne on him. When we got into the van I was asking him questions about who would be at the party and what they would be doing there. Then when I drove up to the house I saw all of the kids hanging around having a good time with the music blasting and there were so many of them. That's when it really hit me, this was a party! Not a watch a video and eat pizza party, not a pin the tail on the donkey party, but an actual party! Jason said, "I'll call you later mom, bye." No hug or kiss good-bye, and then he waved to me so that I would leave. I know that we've taught Jason well and that he makes good choices so I'm not worried about his behavior. What bothers me is that he's not a little kid anymore. I can't believe he's turning into an actual teenager!